You wouldn’t know.

You wouldn’t know.

You wouldn’t know how often you cross my mind. 

How I say you were the best, if ever your name comes up.

How I feed the birds and see their intricate beauty and the details of the colours of a Jay

cause of you.

You wouldn’t know

that I wonder about what would happen if we came into one another’s lives

now.

You wouldn’t know I stay away cause even if I am curious I could never break your heart again.

You wouldn’t know I think of how I hurt you and that I’m so sorry I didn’t know who I was or what I wanted

that I’m forever grateful for how you saw me and believed in me.

You wouldn’t know how much I’ve learned since we last talked.

You wouldn’t know that you taught me ways of being that still hold true.

You wouldn’t know how often I say you were the best I knew.

You wouldn’t know I am sending love as I cut the cord

sending you off into the ether.

…

I wonder if you know.